<- The Forgiving Tree ->
You have got to be kidding me! It certainly does not feel as though I have been away from my dear diary for this long!
Anywho, I went up to the dells this weekend to see Shannon and her new home and got to ride four wheelers (something city girls like me never get to do). And I just had a wonderful time. It was so awesome being introduced as "Shannon's good friend" and talking about being the godmother of their child and the wedding and everything.
Shannon's grandmother died a couple of weeks ago. And when she told me I was so upset but then later I checked the messages on my cell phone and realized that she tried to call me but I did not return her call.
I was way too caught up in everyone else's drama that I forgot about the ones who really do care about me.
When I was leaving Jodie told me that Shannon really misses me alot and stuff and I felt even worse. And now they are further away than ever.
The funny thing is that I look into Shannon's eyes and I know that I still have a place in her heart and it is the same place as always and really that is what kicked me back into gear.
Then I got this strange card today from my college sympathizing with me in light of the death of my father. I have no clue where they got this information from. I would not know if he was dead but I will tell you that I doubt it is true. I mean I am hoping that someone would have told me if the rat bastard died. <---- Is that an appropriate thing to say? What if he is really dead?
I am thinking alot of mean things right now. I should stop.
I am so broke right now! I need to call my momma for some cash asap.
Sarah has not called to talk to me either and I keep thinking back to the hug that I gave her before she left last week and I am slowly but surely thinking that subconsciously I must have given her a good-bye forever kind of hug and maybe she knows it and strangely enough I did not.
What a fucking absurd world I am living in. I am waiting patiently for tomorrow. To see what other unforgiving comment, jesture or action is going to be throw my way so I can try to learn how to forgive it.
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