<- Call Me an Alki I Dont Care... ->
Call me an alchoholic and I will tell you that it is not the drink that I like it is the fun that I have during and after drinking. And if running laps around the house meant that I would have the same fun then I would definitely be in perfect cardiovascular condition.
Part of the problem of being in my position right now is that when I do not spend my nights drinking or intoxicated by something then I have no fucking clue what to do with myself. I stand around spinning in circles.
I mean there is alot that I can do really. I can do some laundry, organize but the thing of it is that whatever I am doing to substitute the nights where I lack sobriety has to be equally fun and exciting. And try as you might making chores that much fun is like trying to squeeze water from a potato chip. It just is not happening.
So in the mean time all I think about is the last time I had fun and when I went out which leads me to want to go out again. This is a lose, lose situation I know.
But I made it to Thursday folks, and I am feeling fine about making it through tonight. Friday, I am a little bit iffy about because I know by then I will be so thirsty to party that trouble will loom around me and set in!
Oh and the whole being single thing... well I am loving it.
No one to really have to call, worry about, make sure I am doing the right thing. I make a horrible girlfriend when I am one so why waste my time and anyone else's know what I mean.
One last thing, I am not responding to Sarah's email to me...if she questions it then I will otherwise I am done.
I bearly have the energy to clean my room on most days, what makes you think I have the energy to deal with her?
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