<- Baffled is Used Twice ->
I am baffled by last night. I was treading dangerous water but it was good. I was looking for some sort of confirmation and in a lot of ways I got it.
I told Kalon last night that maybe it was just Brian and that maybe it was also the whole wanting what you cannot have theory why I was so into the Brian thing.
Speculation comes into play alot here. Everyone has their own motives it seems like and I cannot sort through them.
Brian and I were both really drunk last night and I think I took full advantage of it but at the same time he let me and vice versa. Needless to say that since I do have this small bit of satisfation the interest in him is waning and this is becoming more and more of me just wanting to have fun.
Why does he stay at the bar when we come in? That also baffles me...
Hmmmm, I really do not want to spend anymore time talking about this because in all simplicity it seems to me that once again I do not know what the fuck I am doing but I sure am having a good time doing it.
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