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I find it interesting that people still read my diary though I have not updated in almost a month. It is not as though I have nothing to say or that nothing is going on in my life but I tend to believe this this diary thing can be evil for the most part. I do not know why but I believe that sometimes when I put things in here it turns into some sort of a circus thought in my head. Meaning that it plays all these tricks with me and then I feel as though because I have written about it I am bound to it. It cannot be forgotten and I cannot pretend as though it never existed.
As a result of this I have strayed away from the whole diary/journal thing.
But I wanted to write this today. I wanted to say that patience is definitely a virtue that depending on the situation I have absolutely none of and through many, many instances in life I have learned how to give up when patience ran out and just lay around and be depressed.
It seems to me that spiritually a higher power has been trying to teach me the lesson of hope and to keep on keeping on and I am failing to learn it over and over again.
In true form and for good reason I am putting this information in here so that it WILL become a circus thought and I will not forget it and I cannot pretend as though it never existed.
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