<- I need to figure this out ->
I am back. And not just in a small way but in a very big gigantic kind of a way.
I have a bit of a dillema right now surrounding my relationship life right now.
So you see folks Ive got this chica staying with me right now that I am dating and everything was looking up and going to be okay. She knew that living with me was not an option because I am 23 and I still need my space when involved in relationships. And things were rolling along quite fine. Until I woke up one morning (Sunday morning) and found out that things were not so fine in my head.
I woke up thinking that I no longer wanted to have "long-term" relationships with women. I want to have a family and a regular one at that and I want to be able to have a child with the one I love and not with a turkey baster. I want all that and so much more. I am not saying that is the only reason but the reasons that I held onto in the begining are no longer valid. I always thought that I could never connect and love a man the way I know how with women but clearly that is bullshit!
And the funny thing is that there is no one guy out there that I am seriously in love with or anything like that and it is not like I do not love the girl but there are guys that I can see myself connecting with and blah, blah, blah.
So what do I do? I am not going to say anything to the girl right now. I need to let this sink in. I need to find out where this is coming from. I need to know how much I mean what I am saying.
I just need to find some divine patience.
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