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My heart is a little bit sore. It hurts and I am sure it is because I got into an argument with Dana as soon as I woke up this morning.
I was pissed and then said to her, "You have one option right now and that is to shut up. You are about a millimeter from pushing me off the edge. Shut up." And boy did I mean it. She was pushing and I am stressed out. I cannot take too much more of this and I certainly do not want to. She thinks she is tough shit but she has not come into my world yet. I almost pick up her stuff and threw it down the stairs and told her to get out.
Yes this is the person that I am suppose to be moving in with. This is the person that I am suppose to be finding a new apartment with and I wanted to kick her ass out of my house today.
Something has got to give here. I am fed up. Fed up of arguing with her, fed up with her not understanding me and I am fed up with her utter stupidity at times.
At any rate I went shopping for groceries and spent about 50 dollars and then came home cleaned out the refridgerator talked to my mom and then went to see The Passion of the Christ. I cried, there was so much going through my head and my heart and it was not about any religion or any church it was just about me. It was about strength and being able to stand in your weakest moment when others ridicule and I am physically weak will I be able to stand. I was sad because I know with what I have going on right now I do not know what direction to look in and I do not know which way is up or down and I am giving up. It was inspirational and it was real to me but my heart is even more sore.
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