<- What s Up ->
I have been so up and down about returning to this diary. Mostly because I dont like the idea that I need to lock it. At any rate things here have been a bit crazy.
I started hanging out with Rachel again and whatever is whatever when you really think about it. I really am not one for burning bridges but lets just say that I am happier now that I know better.
I had or have a huge crush on this guy but Rachel would fight me for him any day and realistically speaking I am gay so I am not interested in all the hetero girl drama that goes along with it.
I have been strangely happy and strangely inlove with myself. I mean I am usually hating myself for just about everything that I can do but there is is this ball of love that I want to keep inside and sometime I feel it and I know it is there and sometimes it is not. I dont know what it means to love yourself and to make yourself feel special but I am slowly learning. I guess you can say that I am getting better. Dont get me wrong I have my bad days and I have days that I wish would end as well.
I have been praying alot and trying to connect with myself spiritually as well. I think it is working. I am always trying to look better. Be better and feel better. Now if I could only do something about this weight issue.
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